Tuesday, December 8, 2009

"i feel like everytime i dont want to face something

i just run away and my job allows me to do that

last winter was a fucking hard time for me like every winter

like every summer is hot for me

on the way from shooting to home in the metro

i cried cos even when im 20, i feel the same

i used to come home in a metro crying when i was 16 in paris too.

whats the point of this manifestation

really what is it

since when did i ever have a normal life anyway

it was so fucked up from the beginning its like as if this was the best way

it couldve been layed out anyway whats the point of being upset

people are the same anyway, just mild changes, mild different spectrums,

mild different backgrounds, people do this to each other anyway

it is not the difference between a complex intellect and a beautiful simpleton.

aknowledging it doesnt make the difference, like how people say setting awareness

makes differences. it does, but it doesnt, because action needs to follow.

so what is my action.

jump out the window?

cut ur wrist?

party ?

be decadant?

do charity work?

be a housewife?

obey?

disobey?

prove? not prove?

love ? not love?

enjoy the power?

what power?

im not interested.

pretend to be interested?

i am not entertained.

then entertain yourself

i am not entertaintment

beat yourself with work

only cry for help when you are about to die

when you are on the floor

until no one cares

until not even yourself cares."

I live in her words...
R.I.P Daul Kim