desire
in my life
i never had a goal
or want
right now i want something
i want something really bad
and i never felt happy wanting something
i will get it...
someday" - Daul Kim
I used to read Daul's blog and find comfort
in the things she would write about
even though I have read her entrees many times
I still like to go back
and read again
like if i was looking for an answer to something
or a way to deal with my own problems
I hate these problems that are far from my reach
things that I have no control over
it frustrates me so much
im filled with frustration
& confusion
What do I do now?
Some times I just want to quit
quit everything
and disappear
become someone else
or something else
i don't know what I want
I don't understand why
Sometimes I think i have a goal
or a dream
but when i analyse it or think deeper
I realize "this is not what I want"
dead people seem to be at peace
with no troubles
I envy them
